Pain, the more people try to talk you out of it the more it
hurts. If at one point it seems you have just gotten through the elements of
despair there goes another tease and it pulls you back where you once started.
The thing is you will never be free until you’ve let yourself go and stop being
that ‘doormat’ people keep stepping on. Your voice becomes unheard. You simply
say yes. You cry in your bed at night hoping you would just die because the
people around you wants you to just $#%*^@! OBEY. ( excuse my language
but cursing helps relieve the anger.)
There is a time to be nice;
yes. But there are certain things one has to act consciously not to seem
as if you are totally agreeing with one person. It’s a totally different story
when one goes crying and immediately saying yes in surrender than one who gets
to explain and fight for their side.
True. A guardian’s or
a master’s care wants you to keep of the tracks of danger. They do not want you
to get wet in the rain but regardless life never thrown us here to just follow
what others have done. Life threw us here so that we might discover how unique
we are from one another. Until we understand that we never are going to get out
of our shell. Some of us die inside never getting the chance to come out.
You have to eventually get out that protective raincoat if
you want to enjoy the rain and get sick as you may be but what the hell! Thing
is you got to experience rain.
So, stop being a doormat. Stop being that ‘obedient’ little
kid people think you are. You’re an adult now so live up to what you think is
best for you and self-discovery. It’s a scary path but once you make that first
step out you’ll find your other foot will follow, leading you to place where
you are supposed to be.